Dear Sushant,
It’s weird how we write our thoughts instead of talking about it. And I’m gonna do that today because it’s easier. It’s weird how people claim they know us and leave us astray. It’s another story when you can’t cope with a celebrity dying and people asking you to focus on your work and move on because you didn’t actually know them. They are just film stars, no one expects you to be connected to them in such a way that their sudden death crashes you. I didn’t really understand what loving a celebrity means. But now when we’ve lost one I do. I’m a huge huge fan of Srk and at times I would imagine what his death would bring me. I’m sorry it’s heartbreaking even to think about it. But all of us have nightmares of a close one dying and we woke up destroyed.
I never imagined you vanishing like that. I couldn’t collect myself for a few days. I know I never met you, never even saw you for real. Never even dreamt of meeting you for we were worlds apart.
But your generous smile. Your smile was something I would spend my days happily for. Your posts, your thoughts, your goals, your intellect. I will never get myself to believe that you’re really gone. That I won’t be able to see your super cool posts on Instagram. I know that’s a bit weird how I’m mentioning your Instagram updates again and again. And not your acting skills.
We have plenty of actors to look upto. No doubt you were one of the best. But you were very different as a person.
You knew how to return love to your fans, how you replied to most of the comments and I could only wonder how do you manage to do that.
I couldn’t make myself use Instagram for two days. I couldn’t watch a single news about you I shut it all up. All social media. I wanted to escape from this reality. A part of me still wants you to come back but that would be selfish to ask, thinking of what amount of pain you must be going through that made such strong willed, dedicated man like you take such huge step.
I miss you already Sushant. I miss your Instagram posts because that’s where I really fell in love with you. You’re my inspiration forever.
Atleast people started talking about you now.
Yours,
An admirer.
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